an old friend
so one of the things that's been bothering me quite a bit lately is a story about an old friend of mine, let's call him CC. i went out with YK over the weekend and he told me something about him which shocked me.
i've known CC for a long time now - we became friends in secondary school, even though i've always seen him around in primary school as well. but never really got to know the guy until we worked together on a project. somehow or another, the friendship continued all the way thru poly, and NS. even now, although we hardly see each other anymore, i still think of him as one of the brothers that i never had. which is probably why wat i heard is so shocking to me.
CC has always been a very 'metrosexual' kind of guy - since young, he always knew wat was 'in fashion' and knew how to dress up to look good. a few years back, he decided to hit the gyms in order to build himself up and recently, i heard that he's taking lifesaving lessons as well. and that's where the trouble started..
we chatted on and off thru MSN a few months back when he told me that he's taking lifesaving lessons. he told me jokingly that he thot the instructor was gay since he always seemed to pay CC special attention (seems he's one of the poorest students in class apparently) - looking at him funny and always picking him out for demonstrations. i thot nothing of it, and that he's just joking and didn't think much of it.
a few weeks back, i talked to him thru MSN again.. and he said he was feeling real depressed because he kinda got rejected in love or something. i told him i sympathised with him and hey, such things do happen. tried asking, but he refused to tell me any details. thot that he's going thru a rough patch, so i didn't pry any further.
apparently, YK was telling CC about some problems he was having with his girlfriend and CC told him the whole story behind his 'rejection'.
long story short: that very same lifesaving instructor asked CC out for coffee or something and made a pass at him and they ended up going to a hotel. CC stopped going for lifesaving lessons after that, not sure if it's because he couldn't face the instructor, or because he finished the course. so anyway, the instructor didn't contact CC after that day either. and after telling YK wat happened, CC confessed that he still misses the instructor and also asked YK if he (YK) 'missed' him (CC).
wat the heck? are you seriously telling me that my old friend has turned gay? the same guy whom i've known for over 10 years, and whom i've been going to church with for the past few years? i mean, we joke and accuse each other about being gay and all that as guys usually do. and i dun think i would have as big a problem as i would now if he only had these type of tendencies, but to think that they actually went to a hotel together? that's crossing a line which.. i dunno..
but at the same time, i cannot help but feel sorry for him if this is true. i mean, it's like.. he comes out of the closet, and his first treats him like a one night stand. i can't say i understand exactly, but man.. wat kind of damage does that do to you?
on some level, i'm still hoping that he was oni joking when he told YK the story. afterall, it's hard to tell the difference when you're talking thru MSN. but YK strongly believes that he was telling the truth since the tone of their whole conversation was very serious. and i hate to admit it, but YK tends to be generally better at judging people and emotions than i am.
so where does that leave me now? CC doesn't yet know that i know. and if i were to go up and ask him about it, he will most prob be all defensive about it and deny everything. and he'll know that it was YK that told me. and i.. dunno wat else i can do for him..
meeting another good fren of ours soon for dinner, gonna try and get him out as well. the least i think i have to do is to ascertain for myself if wat i heard is true before letting it bother me any further..
i've known CC for a long time now - we became friends in secondary school, even though i've always seen him around in primary school as well. but never really got to know the guy until we worked together on a project. somehow or another, the friendship continued all the way thru poly, and NS. even now, although we hardly see each other anymore, i still think of him as one of the brothers that i never had. which is probably why wat i heard is so shocking to me.
CC has always been a very 'metrosexual' kind of guy - since young, he always knew wat was 'in fashion' and knew how to dress up to look good. a few years back, he decided to hit the gyms in order to build himself up and recently, i heard that he's taking lifesaving lessons as well. and that's where the trouble started..
we chatted on and off thru MSN a few months back when he told me that he's taking lifesaving lessons. he told me jokingly that he thot the instructor was gay since he always seemed to pay CC special attention (seems he's one of the poorest students in class apparently) - looking at him funny and always picking him out for demonstrations. i thot nothing of it, and that he's just joking and didn't think much of it.
a few weeks back, i talked to him thru MSN again.. and he said he was feeling real depressed because he kinda got rejected in love or something. i told him i sympathised with him and hey, such things do happen. tried asking, but he refused to tell me any details. thot that he's going thru a rough patch, so i didn't pry any further.
apparently, YK was telling CC about some problems he was having with his girlfriend and CC told him the whole story behind his 'rejection'.
long story short: that very same lifesaving instructor asked CC out for coffee or something and made a pass at him and they ended up going to a hotel. CC stopped going for lifesaving lessons after that, not sure if it's because he couldn't face the instructor, or because he finished the course. so anyway, the instructor didn't contact CC after that day either. and after telling YK wat happened, CC confessed that he still misses the instructor and also asked YK if he (YK) 'missed' him (CC).
wat the heck? are you seriously telling me that my old friend has turned gay? the same guy whom i've known for over 10 years, and whom i've been going to church with for the past few years? i mean, we joke and accuse each other about being gay and all that as guys usually do. and i dun think i would have as big a problem as i would now if he only had these type of tendencies, but to think that they actually went to a hotel together? that's crossing a line which.. i dunno..
but at the same time, i cannot help but feel sorry for him if this is true. i mean, it's like.. he comes out of the closet, and his first treats him like a one night stand. i can't say i understand exactly, but man.. wat kind of damage does that do to you?
on some level, i'm still hoping that he was oni joking when he told YK the story. afterall, it's hard to tell the difference when you're talking thru MSN. but YK strongly believes that he was telling the truth since the tone of their whole conversation was very serious. and i hate to admit it, but YK tends to be generally better at judging people and emotions than i am.
so where does that leave me now? CC doesn't yet know that i know. and if i were to go up and ask him about it, he will most prob be all defensive about it and deny everything. and he'll know that it was YK that told me. and i.. dunno wat else i can do for him..
meeting another good fren of ours soon for dinner, gonna try and get him out as well. the least i think i have to do is to ascertain for myself if wat i heard is true before letting it bother me any further..
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