reassurance

they told me during the appraisal session that i was earmarked to be the team lead during the O&S phase of the project next year. i felt flattered, sure.. but at the back of my mind, i was full of fear and doubt. as i mentioned before, i felt that that i was sorely lacking in domain knowledge. can i really be effective in the position like this?

i went for mass today and during the Eucharist, i saw Han with his wife and kids. Han - my upper-study during NS. he was a regular 2nd sgt at the time, an admin supervisor by vocation. i was assigned to his office back then cos i had an IT diploma and the manpower officer wanted me to work on a special project. i guessed i had proved myself enough by that time cos they wanted me to take over him when he was leaving. imagine that - a lowly private taking over the job of a regular sergeant.

looking back at it now, i realised that this is exactly the same situation that i found myself in all those years ago. put in a position where i was technically competent, but lacking in the domain knowledge department. if i could do it then, why couldn't i do it again?

and with that, i feel much more... reassured. watever they can throw at me, i can handle it. yea...